This is no Life

3 days of no activity – nothing but pain. Lying on the sofa eating sweets like they are drugs – pain so bad that i want to die. Is it a crime to really want to die? I don’t mean dramatic suicide attempts, what i mean is that when pain is so bad that there is no respite all i can think of is ending the pain. Tramadol, paracetamol, ibrufen cocktails take the edge off but leave me tearful and woozy.