grumpy new year

so its another year and yet again I am laid low by this damned condition. That and the weather have left me fatter and more miserable than ever. New year? seems like it is just a case of same shit different day! I am at the foot of this mountain and preparing for my first steps up it – when i get to the top nobody knows and i will probably be dead before i get there but i have a glimmer of hope in my heart that this year life will be different and the pain will be less often.