I am still in pain and each day things seem to be overwhelming. It seems easier to go to bed, eat or slob out on the sofa than to get on with life and living.
I am so worried about money and despite huge help from my father, there is still no money in the pot so to speak. Yet i keep spending money – why - i really don’t know. Its like why do I eat when i know that arse is the size of a small country, why do dally when there is tasks and work to be done, why do i keep doing this to myself?
Even getting washed, brushing teeth and general care has gone and i have had enough. Its so damned pointless. So with that in mind I have created a schedule and I am bloody well going to stick as best as i can to it – it paces me and ensures that things get done.
Please God help me to turn my life around and get a job and be back to how I was…i hate this lonely crappy existence.
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